Sooo loonnnggg everyone.

Or, well I will see you on my new livejournal, miss_radium.
If you see that one on your flist, it's me. I just readded all my friends from here, didn't give you a choice lol.

I could have just switched my whole journal to either this or my old art journal radium_angel but neither of them are unique. Okay so "miss radium" isn't incredibly unique but at least I made it up lol.

I'm not deleting this journal or radium_angel because I like looking back at my entries. I am horrible at writing in my diary so this is like a history of the past 3 years, or at least summer 04.

I went for a bike ride and it was really cloudy and I got a sunburn. why?????

Anyway.

I went through and added my friends list to my new livejournal miss_radium. It's going to be the same as this just with art and a new name. So pleasey please add me back :) *is cute*

Eghghgh Fluffy got to be in all day but apparently he was in all night and he pooped it's soooooo grosss eeecckckckc. I had to clean it it was disgusting.

So then I had been trying to take a break from Cinema Strange because I know I will get sick of them listening to them all the time but I decided I get to listen to them since I had to clean up cat shit.

Dance today. Dunno what I'm gonna paint. Probably stuff to give as Xmas presents because I need to get on that! I would paint In Flew Enza but I jusstt did a Lula related painting yesterday. That is not loading into dA, idk why.

Yess and go add miss_radium. I'll start using it later this week once I've added everyone.

We get a unit reflection paper instead of a test for Western Civ and it was really easy. I have it all done. Haven't read it or anything but whatever.

I am going to abandon this lj pretty soon. Not delete it because I like going back and looking at my entries lol. I am just merging my art and my rambling journal into one! I could just use this but I want a unique username. I came up with the name allll by myself lol aren't I clever?
Well, not really.

Anyway.
New LJ: miss_radium
I haven't updated it yet, obviously. But go add me there!!!! If you don't then I'm just going to go add all of you, lol.

I brought in some paintings to show Mrs.Salinger so then Lindsay was looking but she was like "oh, you have these all on your site, right". So then I had to give la profesora de arte my dA page link. You can't get in trouble for drawing nude people, out of school, can you? Or lesbian mermaids lol you know whatever.

Oh yes but I did update radium_angel one last time so go see!!!

I have decided to get another myspace. Yes, another one! At the moment there's like nothing on it lol:
www.myspace.com/missradium
Add me!

And do you know Jessica Galbreth is holding a contest? Well she is:
http://enchanted-art.com/pages/annualcontest.php
That's pretty cool, and I hope everyone enters and I wish everyone good luck :)
I can't enter because I'm not 16. I wonder if it has anything to do with legal issues or to avoid little kids sending in bad art. If it is the latter, that is totally crap. I mean I don't know why she chose to make it 16 and up but still. I can totally show up some artists who are older than me. Okay maybe not that many of them but I could show up some of them. Hahaha maybe not.

Anywho. Later I'll update radium_angel with new art and today I'm gonna work on Speak, Marauder! and continue making my jean skirt more interesting.

Ooohhhh I must have Victoria Frances's 2007 calendar!!
It would have to be in spanish but whatever. I might need her 2006 one too because that's the only way I can really get to see her work and have a copy of it. I absolutely hate navigating through her site and then the pictures are so little. And that's like 12 prints too. And her art is sooooo amazinnnggggggggggg.

Anyway today I raked. And I went to Rite Aid and got some soap. I got 2 kinds. One to use most days and one to use twice a week to continue trying to look like a china doll. And purple eyeliner. Painted chopsticks and am going to stick things on them and stick them in my hair. Started gothitizing a jean skirt, because it is incredibly dull. It would look so much better with yards of lace and other assorted fabrics. Painted The Beauty of Poison.

That might have been the most senseless drivel I've ever written in here besides my first post.

Tomorrow I am being forced to pretend I am Christian (i.e, going to church) and going to work on Speak, Marauder! and rake some more.

We are back a day early.
It took nearly twice as long to get there (New Jersey), just me and dad, we listened to Cinema Strange and got milkshakes. We went to see Andy (my sick grandpa) first, and he was doing okay. We went to the house and saw everyone. My Thanksgiving dinner was a piece of Italian bread with peanut butter. And an apple, but somehow it got all salty, so I didn't eat it. And they also did not buy any Hilary food, and you can't get really far without at least potato bread. Jordan looks just like she did 4 years ago when she came to visit, but she's adorable, she's in 4th grade now.
Today we didn't do very much, hung around in the morning. We were supposed to go to Aunt Nettie's house (she's like 90 but she totally looks really young, and I have no clue who's aunt she is) but we went to visit Andy in the hospital again and then it was too late to go visit with Nettie. Andy had a mild heart attack earlier this week and so my mom went to stay there for a few days before we went up. He is having a catherzation or whatever the fuck it's called soon. But I think he's doing okay.
I've only had like one normal meal the past few days lol. My tummy is all stabby pain now, which alwys happens when I go on the poptart diet (eating junk). I think you can fix that with like tums or something but it goes away if I dance a lot. *puts on Ayria*

Oohh and I got my nails done. Me and Jordan did. I got this nice deep bloodred color that is all the rage, according to the Korean lady who did my nails. They look really nice and glossy except for where the superglue exploded.

Happy Thanksgiving everyone :)


I have not done anything for the past hour but dance to Combichrist. I fucked up my shoulder somehow too. I found a place to listen to Get Your Body Beat and am a happy girrlrllly.
Me and Bristol had a lovely time this afternoon making braclets for 5 hours. We made 18 in total. That's not a lot in 5 hours lol.

Going to work on En Hiver now to finish it. Or go around and dance outside in the cold. I think the latter sounds like fun. Especially in shorts and a cami.

*minutes later*
Yes, that was very cold. I hope I don't get pneumnonia. It was oddly powerful though. You know, standing out there in little clothes in the cold wind and dark.

Anyway I hope you all have a lovely time with your family and food and stuff and football.

It's very much like summer without all the warm and the green. Me and my dad watched the second Resident Evil movie...we meant to get the first but then the second was in the wrong box lol. We're gonna get the first tonight. Then I watched the day in the life of part of the Dresden Dolls dvd. And then after danced around a bit to the dolls, which I now realize is dangerous to anything hanging on my closet door. Crazy flaily arm dancing lol. Not good.

And then around one today I'm gonna go over to Bristol's and we're gonna make some mad Christmas crafts for some craft fair she's doing lol, and hang out.
And then tomorrow I'm going away until Saturday. We're leaving tomorrow to avoid traffic. I hate Thanksgiving, in all honesty. Does anyone actually give thanks? No. You watch the parade and eat turkey and watch football. Watching people eat for hours and cook and do foody things isn't really fun. Especially if you're not eating. I had like conversations with 3 different people yesterday about my eating habits. "You've never eaten a potato OMG".

Going to go paint or sew now. I might paint. Finish up the snow and then sew later. Or sew on Saturday.
Poor chichi (Kachina) is being pukey. She woke me up this morning with her bizarre puking noises. She's out now. She was going crazy in the bathtub yesterday, jumping around and attacking me when I tried to take her out. (it had no water but she's a smart kitty and understands you can go in it)

I should find time in the morning, like 20 minutes, to do yoga. But I only have 20 minutes to get dressed. But it would be really nice.

Today feels so weird because it's like Friday but then I have dance. It's weeiirirrdd. I really feel like going out and doing something or hang out with people. But I don't know like any of my friends phone numbers lol I suck.
I have to bring in some paintings after break for Mrs.Salinger to see so I have to pick some of my best. Any suggestions??
Man it's cold. I think I'm going to work on En Hiver today. I have to re-figureout my colors for The Beauty of Poison since I used the pink and green combo in my last painting. Green and purple maybe?? Green and pink and purple?

Soooo coolldd out. I don't know what I was thinking wearing that silky wrap skirt and nothing else but I absolutely froze walking home. I can't feel my fingers. I have a headache and in general feel like crap, and now, am menstrual.
It's funnnnn being a girl, isn't it?
*dies*
Walking wasn't so bad because I was listening to Cinema Strange. So I had something else to focus on besides being fucking cold. Like that time I totally like killed something in my lower...area...and had to walk home in much pain but it was okay because I was listening to The Dresden Dolls.
Code Lyoko is still on Cartoon Network! lmao I'm such a little kid I love that show :P

Anyway..I have to go paint my deathrock faery lady. She's coming really nice, everything is very smooth.
I wasn't able to get much info about the Academy at school. Mrs.Salinger says that she thinks I have a good chance at getting in. I think I would really like to go if just to be around more people with my interests. And of course art, but whatever. Too cold to type much.

My dad brought me to the bookstore and I spent by $50 gift card. I got The Haunting of Alaizabel Cray, which I've already read, and also Valiant, I've read that before too, from the library. And then I got Blue Bloods, which has something to do with vampires. And a book called Mira, Mirror, and I've already forgotten what the hell it's about but it has a pretty cover. And the Blue Girl by Charles De Lint. And after I picked out my books, they were pretty much just $50, but I saw this big book of Victorian fairy art. My dad told me to put it on my Christmas list so I pouted a bit and he is making me rake for it lol, but I got it! I really love it, I love all that old stuff. I got in a conversation with the cashier about faery art, because she said she really liked it a lot.

I'm thinking about maybe applying to the Greater Hartford Academy of the Arts. I would go to my school in the morning and there and then get back around 5 everday. It would be a lot. I know some people who go for performing arts but I'd go for visual. I don't know, I'm gonna get some info on it from my art teacher tomorrow.

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

My dress came!!!! From Artifice.
The PVC lolita one.
OMG I LOVE IT!!!!!!

I am so wearing it to the semi. It's a bit short and a bit...well it's pvc, to be considered semi formal but what the fuck I'll look hot!

So the Regionals auditions were today. I got a 70/115. Last year I got a 90/115. And the worst part is I know I could have done much better if I had more time to go over the song with my voice teacher because I just wasn't ready. Soprano judges are also really harsh, everyone knows that.
Anyway, I'm doing the same song for New Englands because I haven't the time to learn a whole new song so now at least I know what I need to work on. I got a 135/140 last year, for New Englands.
And it didn't help that I had a cold. I was coughing so much right before my audition, because warming up totally wrecked my voice, because I'm sick.

And I snagged this meme from zeibysasis

RULES: Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things/habits about yourself. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 10 weird habits/things as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names.

1. I think I would absolutely die without my chapstick. I can't go more than 10 minutes without any on.

2. I hate making eye contact with people. So I tend to look to the side of someone or at something else, otherwise if I do make eye contact I never know when to look away or go on looking at them.

3. I cannot stand people who walk slow. They drive me absolutely mad, especially when I have to go from one end of the hallway to the end of another hallway and everyone is walking so slow because their class is close.

4. I hate walking behind or directly in front of someone that I don't know/am not intentionally walking with, when I walk home. If I'm stuck behind someone and can't catch up with them to pass them, but they are still walking slower than me, I always walk really slow and they probably think I'm stalking them.

5. I hate hate hate smelly food. Especially if my parents or someone next to me is eating like smelly soup or pasta I hate it. Mind you, I hate a lot of food in general.

6. I can be completely awake after only 4 hours of sleep but when I get 10 hours of sleep I'm tired all day.

7. Spiders are the most terrifying things in the world, but I think spider webs are really cool and I have a lot of things with spider web patterns on them.

8. We had to design a flyer with Microsoft word in Computer Apps for a Blood Drive and I nearly fainted looking at the little cartoon blood graphics.

9. Sometimes when I'm bored, I snap my fingers, and I don't realize it, I just kind of do it. If my hands have nothing to do, in general, I play with my necklace, hair, clothes, whatever, or snap my fingers.

10. I never wear matching socks.


Don't feel like tagging anyone, if you want to do it go ahead.

This song just got really odd. Intermezzo: Bright Violet Euphoria by Cinema Strange has got to be the saddest instrumental. Their new cd doesn't have really distinct songs like the other but I still like it. I love the first one. En Hiver is the bestest song but it's so short!

Oh goddd I'm getting nervous for tomorrow!
I absolutely suck at sight reading. I got like a 2 out of 15. Or maybe it was a 4. Haha.
I can do okay with the scales I think. I can't really practice now without being disruptive (and out of tune pianos don't really help).
So I have to really count on the song. I'm doing my best with the dynamics and stuff and I think I do okay with following the accompaniment but I don't have anyone to tell me what to do better.
I am like terrified my cold is going to be horrible tomorrow. I've had a little one like all week and today it got a tiny bit worse. But tomorrow I have the audition it better be okay.

Anyway, I really like the cds so far. The debut is my favorite of the 2. The new one, I don't know, I don't like it as much. With their first 2 cds I really love all the songs and their all catchy and different but with this one I haven't been able to pick favorites because none of them have any really distinct thing about them. But then I've only listened to it 1.5 times.

Well...happy horses and summer faeries don't paint themselves! I am getting quick tired of looking at it. The faery shouldn't take long and her clothes are easy. I want to scan it tonight too.
I am then going to work through all my ideas in the order that I got them. Or else they never get painted.

Yay my Cinema Strange cds came!
I totally wasn't expecting them until next week sometime. I got their debut and whatever the hell their new one is called.
From Projekt, I think I have all of the little adverisements they send with orders lol.
And you know how sometimes packages have newspaper keeping the stuff safe, especially from little businesses?
Well I open the package and the newspaper packaging is all like pictures of half naked girls like "hot horny girls" and like "sexy curvy women awaiting your call".
LMAO!!!!
I don't know how I would explain that to my parents hahahaha.
"oh....it...erm...it came with the cds??"

ahhaahahahahahah

Today there was a spanish trip to NYC that I didn't go on because I can't stand my spanish class (although there would have been other classes) and it was originally on the closing night of Fame.
Since like my whole spanish class is in my Western Civ class, there were only like 6 girls there and we didn't do much. Mrs.Mercurio had handed back the Pericles essay thing a few days ago and a lot of people had to rewrite it but she didn't give me mine back until today! Bristol said something about her being confused with the other Hillary in period 6 who did really well (of course she did) but I still don't get how that means I didn't get my paper back until now. She made me rewrite it for one argument. We had to say whether or not Pericles definition of Athenian Democracy was accurate. And in most parts it is except for how he doesn't mention the women not having rights. I had asked Mrs.Mercurio if it was okay to address both sides of the argument and she said it was so I don't really understand why she made me rewrite it. But whatever. I did it in class and then came back and we made Mrs.Mercurio watch White and Nerdy lol.
I hope you realize that when I complain about stuff like I just complained about, that it doesn't mean it's a big deal or anything. You have to remember I tend to complain about anything.

Anyway..Tomorrow is Regionals and I'm really nervous and I'm totally not ready. And my audition is like at 1 which is at the end so I have to be nervous allll day. Sucks. It also sucks how long we're going to be there because it's totally boring.
Then next week I only have 2 days of school and on Thanksgiving day I get to go and visit my family in New Jersey for like 3 days. Thanksgiving is always my least favorite holiday. I hate all the food and I don't really like visiting. I am excited though because I get to see my other uncle and his family who I haven't seen for years. But the rest of it is pretty dull and they all insist on leaivng and doing stuff at like 10 am and I don't think they realize that teenagers shouldn't have to be awake until like...1.

I'm really tired. And for some reason my left thigh is like allll sore. I am determined to finish my happy horse painting that I've been working on all week tonight. I have soooo very many other ideas. And you know what sucks? I get going on one idea and then in the middle of that I get more ideas so the ideas that were on hold before I started on the first idea just kind of get ditched. And sometimes they're all really good ideas.

Not much new to ramble about today.
I really like the Deadfly Ensemble.
I went to chorus today and Maria, who I was sitting next to, does everything from memory and got me incredibly confused trying to figure out where we were in the music that I don't know. Our sopranos are really very weak. I couldn't tell where we were half the time because I couldn't hear them and I was sitting with them.
I did all my essays yesterday so today I can paint :)
Lots of people liked the little blue stars I pencilled on my face, 2 near the eyes. I need more colored eyeliner because it is really cool. I wore my ripped fishnets over striped tights and it confused a lot of people but they all like it lol.

I started using this leave in conditioner and it doesn't really do much for the frizziness. I hate girls who think the girls with crazy hair (as in uncontrollable) look gross, but they have straight hair to begin with or tame. There isn't much I can actually do to my hair to make it do what I want. It's sucks but that's just how my stupid hair is. Or sometimes it will look nice and then like an hour later it will be a mess. It has a life of it's ownnnn.

Oh yes. And I have to thank you all for how wonderfully helpful you were on my last post.
Not.
*is a drama queen*

So you know that neverending series I was talking about? I finished the first sketch. It's still in that screwy stage and I haven't really like fixed anything yet. My problem is the dress. I like the design but I don't want it all one color you know? I was thinking maybe like panels of color against black but I don't know. So I am enlisting my artsy friends to help me out.
Here she is:

She is the Faery Queen of Deathrock. I also need your help on color. Think BRIGHT and obnoxious, like neons and stuff.

I ended up doing my english essay after all so tomorrow I can paint to my heart's content (given that I won't have a lot of homework since I lost my comptuer apps study all).

Back to the happy horse summer faery painting. I should work on the trees some tonight.

I might go to see one of my friends at some talent thing on Saturday. I don't know anything about it but one of my friends wants me to cover for her so she can meet some college guy her parents won't let her see. I just don't want to go by myself lol it's in Torrington and I don't really know anyone there.

I can't wait for it to snow. Lately it's been around 60 but it just looks like snow and I want to it snow!

So I got all my paper assignments today. I did my Western Civ already. It's 3 pages and it's not due til after Thanksgiving but I wanted it out of the way. It's pretty rambley and I don't know if the facts I used are the ones she wants us to use, it was arguing that philosophy is the essence of Ancient greek rather than democracy. You could have picked from 4 different things which was the essence. I kept getting on this roll and rambling about being enlightened and knowledge and crap.
I have an english paper due the 27th but it's really easy. I'm doing it tomorrow and it's about the carousel in Catcher in the Rye. I already planned it out (that was homewrok) so all I really have to do is expand on it.

I also now have 2 classes period 7. I got to Computer Apps days 2,3, and 4 and chorus on day 1. I am special.
I was going to talk about something else.....

Oh I got this crazy idea for a series last night. I had this idea of a dress in mind so I decided to make her a kind of deathrocker faery and so I was thinking of names for it. I thought the dress would be elaborate, so maybe she should be a queen. And I got this whole idea for this neverending series of Faery Queens. Faery queens of sunflowers of rainbows and everything in between (including deathrock, which is totally random compared to everything else I came up with, but it started it all). I have a list of ideas but it can never be finished really because there are so many possibilities. I will be working on it for the rest of my life. I bet I will be too lol.

Going to go paint happy summer horses and faeries and flowers now.